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because my uncle got the all clear! he's free of cancer . or at least free for the next 7 years when it will come back (it's bone cancer so it will keep coming back).

it just means i have my uncle back. and hopefully he won't have to spend next Christmas in bed! and he'll get his hair back and won't be as skinny as me anymore! and i ll be able to see him even if i have a cold :).

for those who aren't holy please forgive the next line-

thank you God for giving my uncle another chance.
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and about time!

i am actually loving life at the mo...iv some money (not much, but some ) ..i'v got my freedom..i'v got decent friends...and iv a decent degree under my belt ...i think im going to do a masters when i gain more clinical experience..!

heading off to Glasgow/ Edinburgh for a few days to visit my friend who's recovering from an op. and it's about time!

job agency rang randomly  2day offering me an admin temp job in RCSI. said i wouldn't take it though as I want a proper job. would have been on about 12eur an hour tho so kinda regretting that.
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got another 4 or so more i have to add to this to update some nice horses, 2 still lives and another face :)....still doing my art classes on fridays and producing some nice stuff when i have the patience to work on them and not in a panic to get them alll done in 2 hours..:)
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(nice poem entry!)

An Irish Airman Forsees His Death

I KNOW that I shall meet my fate
Somewhere among the clouds above;
Those that I fight I do not hate,
Those that I guard I do not love;
My county is Kiltartan Cross,
My countrymen Kiltartan's poor,
No likely end could bring them loss
Or leave them happier than before.
Nor law, nor duty bade me fight,
Nor public men, nor cheering crowds,
A lonely impulse of delight
Drove to this tumult in the clouds;
I balanced all, brought all to mind,
The years to come seemed waste of breath,
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.

William Butler Yeats
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am bit bogged down with work and what not...meh missing fencing least i can still make my art classes...yeah had a bit of an altercation with one of my mates over something stupid..couldn't have come at a worse desperately trying to meet all my deadlines, have to have my methodology chapter and results chapter in by the 15th of december..which is like 2 weeks or not in the best frame of mind to deal with it..

ontop of that im getting suddenly getting millions of emails off my supervisor looking for more of my work and my uncle may have cancer...there's somehting wrong with his blood and 5 of his verebrae have collapsed due to osteophorosis...back to the computer shacks tomorrow...
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is actually great... am really happy at fencing well at the tcd cup as i haven't been able to make it to too many training sessions what with my placements and the whole no-right-of-way thing with the Epee...and liked beating that girl on the UCD team, although i did loose superably to that giant from fencing rocks and finally this year have gotten to know people a lot better at it so that's cool...i am a member of the cliche (at least i hope I am now).

also am loving this new art class i joined with some friends and they seem to love it too..finally got me back into art :)

and then of course i see to be always surrounded by good friends (am very lucky girl to have such friends who help me through the hard times when crap happens, and some people still supprise me with their kindness like my supervisor on placement, so thoughtful)..more people should be like that and quit being selfish gomes...yeah also there's plenty of people i know who aren't so nice so don't get the wrong impression but i would never call them my friends.

also am progressing well with my college work although am easily's too short to spend too much if it working and not enjoying yourself (and i am still 21) so i v got my whole life ahead of me..
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A Seraph by my hands (title)

A thousand creases upon my hand,
a never-ending grey,
like ice; stiff, untouched, unmoved.
A gateway to the wind.

Their job is clear,
To serve thy owner and honour thy will:
Clench a mug, twist a knob, and stroke the cat,
it's all the same.

Every crease is every worthy task,
Every necessary movement,
Greying is a mark of maturity and greater physical attainment,

And then it all stops because one day they get real old.
They don't work quite so well.
They don't understand.
They question why they are here.
Wonder what it's all about.
Now their time is nearly up. Their function gone.
A gateway to the wind.
like ice; stiff, untouched, unmoved and cold.
Previously all knowing.

So why are you here little hands,
And why do you wait so long to ask me little ones,
Now old and broken what it's all about?

Do you need more silky skin?
More paddng in your fingers?
Less of the weary veins?
Perhaps you miss the time when you were young,
Things were simpler,
You were all knowing and unmoved.

Do you need a surgeon or do you need a gateway?
A gateway that has a body and doesn't rush through.
But why do you only realise now that life is a temporary pantomime that must end?

Surely you've thought about the end and what lies beyond? No?
Well don't worry for I am a seraph by your side.
I ask you to listen, believe, for you know that nothing lasts forever but your heart and soul.
Look, listen, believe and touch for today is the start of the rest of your life,
and you are no longer a gateway to the wind. Just believe,
Believe in me now before it's too late.
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